Alice In Darkland - The Cave (Aware Of Not Existing)

Repetition of my behaviour

Is an everlasting course of scenes

That run after one another

Fixed points of a vicious circle

That I wasn't able to break

Of a schematic existence

As futile as my own behaviour



My life is a long journey

Through the desolate ways of time

A course of infinite sensations within myself

Companions of my destiny

Unrelenting and obscure omen of death



A sad certainty

The sole step of my existence

Which will make me alike those around me

I've ever lived without thinking about it

Jealously keeping within me

The phobia of what will happen

That morbid fear which day by day

Has worn out my thoughts

Rendering my life a slow agonizing suicide



Giving birth to my deepest anguish

Aware of not existing



Revelation of the obscure omen

Achievement of my destiny

Now I realize I've never really lived

I think over the infinity of things that I could have done

But my courage failed

Desires... never fullfilled

Dreams... never realized

Because of stupid fears



I feel I have thrown away a lot of time that was at my disposal

During the journey of my life

Into the obscure abyss of forgetfullness and depression

That journey which was not so long as I imagined